Its your girl, Lady

»if i die tonyt wud u feel the loss?

Thursday, June 26, 2008

YOUS DON'T LIVE MY LIFE THEREFORE YOUS DON'T KNOW HOW SHIT IS.

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»WER U IN THE CATERGORY?

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

1. A man won't let go if he really loves you. Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves

you. There is another reason he is not willing to tell.

2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship. There is only one reason why he ended

your relationship. He just does not love you. Do not waste your time thinking of reasons or what you should have done. Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.

3. Do not get hung up on your past. Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt you. Do not treat him or the relationship the same way. Do not compare. He will not react the same way as your ex. Do not be worried that your simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl. What happened with your ex was not your fault. It was not because you didn't guard him enough or you didn't make him happy enough.

4. Do not look into images. How many times have you met a girl who didn't have the best image in school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she was actually extremely nice? Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is far from reality. Do not fear men just because your "supposedly" perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.

5. Always have your own set of rules. Set your limits on how far you'd go for a guy. It's perfectly ok to give and do everything as long as it's worth it. And it's worth it if the guy is treating you right.

6. Do not be scared to lose him. Don't be scared that he'll break up with you. Once you are afraid of losing him, you easily can be taken advantage. Be strong and if something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.

7. Avoid calling your guy. It's a guy thing. The relationship will definitely be better if it's the guy who's calling, not the girl. He will get tired of you if you keep on calling. He will lose interest and challenge. More so, he will get annoyed. But it's a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy until you dial his number. But avoid as much as possible. Call only if really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).

8. There is a guy who will value you. There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and loved. And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together. So don't lose hope. Don't settle for a lesbian if you are not attracted to women. There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can. Also, do not believe him when he says it's just the way he really is. He's not the sweet or expressive-type. Remember during your first few weeks together? Where has that sweet guy gone? He simply is not that into you anymore.

9. Always be the only one, no matter what. Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife, girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can't get rid of for whatever reason. If you truly believe that he loves you and for some reason, he can't leave or let go of another girl, then you are no different from any ordinary mistress.

10. He must respect you. No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.

11. If he fooled you, end it.

those written above are true. So, [x] BYE BYE [x]

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»Where is the LOVE babe?

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

well well well.. what can i say. Spechless ata aco. loool. These past few days nanood ako ng movie ang titulo ay :

100 Days wif Mr. Arrogant- A korean comedy/romantic movie. Its really funny U must watch it too beszz coz I watched it wif kuno. hahahaa. nakakatawa then very romantic takte! nakakinggit mangiyak ngiyak pco tuhnuh! Bat kaya love life ko wlang ka-romaromantic! puro tiis nalang at pasenxa. shett. nkakapagod.. ang sakit na tlaga.. i tried to be happee but ang hirap kung ikaw lang nagpapasaya sa sarili mo. Pero ayus lang ako.. time will come. Someday you're gonna realize.. hala! lol amf nagdrama nmn leche.

and then i also watched:

Coyote Ugly. So i guess ya'll know about this movie. Isa lang ang alam ko dito- TYPE NA TYPE KO UNG LALAKI. UNG PARTNER NIA DITO. HAHAHA ANG GWAAAPOO! MAHAL KO NA SYA! HAHA LOL AS IF. sana may ganun din na hindi artista para madali abutin. hahaha. Ang ganda ng character ng lalaki dito- caring.. loving.. and mature. 'Tas he did everythin for her girl. He only wants her to be happy.. and Immm soo jealouss about it BIGTIME. haayayayyss.. Where will I go? What should I do? How will I kno?? that you're the man.. Im dreamin' of.. I hope this time it's Love.. *sighs*

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»Fellas, tell ya laydee she's da one.. Im the ONE. :)

Saturday, June 21, 2008

"never find excuses for a man"

for the longest time, i've been denying it with the idea that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you at all.

just the other day i let myself fall a little. just a little bit.. when we were talking and having fun with each other while me on cam, i told myself i'm willing to risk my feelings and work through any problems we come across. he was teasing me so cute and sweet like what we used to do before like nothing happened, i melted into him. nothing is worth losing this feeling, i thought.

now i feel stupid.. not because i felt that way, but knowing that this is all one-sided. i've been trying so hard all this time to make him want me the way i want him. when he doesn't, i reason with myself.. maybe he has alot going on, maybe he doesn't know, maybe it's a guy thing.. but maybe, maybe he's just not that into you, darling. i find myself constantly fighting for our time, while he fights for his alone time. the fighting hurts, but what hurts the most is seeing how hard he fights for his freedom. his busy time for exam, review for school tests which happens to be the same reason for last 2months or so.

don't give me the if you love something let it go, if it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it was never meant to be shit. i'm not 14, i know better than to believe that.. because if you love something, hold on to it. nothing is "meant to be". you MAKE it be. that's my two cents.

but what's also true is that you can't MAKE someone want you. there's no point in tying him down with guilt while we both sulk. at least one of us should be happy. right? now i just have to deny what i felt was anything remotely special.. SO TRUE right?

[x] happy weekend everyone. ;)

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»no stress, no stress

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Kaasar! hindi ako nakaalis kanina. badtrip pero ayos lang.. im cool,minty cool. haha lols.

nag-alaga aco ng pamangkin co soo cute shet!

he's 7months old. grabe ang kyoot tlaga sinasabi ko. hahaha eto picture niya pra may idea kayong mga tanga. (joke lol haha) d halatang badtrip noh? there he is my sooper cute pamangkin xanderrrr!! bat sa pic na to i think he's only 3months old. wla pang latest e, but d nmn nagbago itsura nya pogi pa din. Mahaba xa for his age, matangkad kasi brother ko so dun ata xa nagmana.. sana nmn noh pangit ang maliit. hahahaha. minsan nga gusto ko na magka-anak pero wala eh, im too young and madami pa ako plans sa buhay ko. madame pa ako gusto maexperience.. Mga 27 or 26 y/o gusto ko na magka-anak. malapit na un ilang years nalang.. kaya nco sino kaya mapapangasawa ko! hahaha hirap e, lalo ngayon dco na alam kung meron pa bang lalaki para sa akin.. ewan. Hirap na mangarap lalo pa't hindi din sigurado sayo. Badtrip noh? So i guess mas mabuti magplan dun sa taong sigurado sayo at gusto kanag panagutan. Hindi ung ikaw lang ang nagpaplano.. i realized that. And trust no one better than yourself. and love yourself more than others 'coz:

when someone becomes your everything, you are nothing to yourself.

Well this doesn't mean naman na i don't love someone. It's just that i realized that kahit nagmamahal tayo, dapat may limitations para hindi natin nakakalimutan alagaan ang sarili natin. Don't give your all unless he deserves it. So yun, my heart is still open.. maybe I'm just waiting for the right time. Hope that the things happened to us gives us lesson and improvement wif our future relationships.

so yun, ciao bello.
Bye fuckerSss!!

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»Bad day today,

Monday, June 9, 2008

kabaliktaran naman ng gusto ko kagabi, ngayon hindi ko feel kumain. ewan ko! tinatamad ata ako? or ano? malay.

today is such a fucked up day! everything about me is not okay. I fucked up myself last night so today they blame me. Arghs! So maybe that's the reason why I don't feel like eating.

I hate it when I did something na hindi ko naman tlaga gusto mangyari or gawin- nagkataon lang talaga. I feel like crying. But idk the hell I care. Im so pisssssssssed!! haha its so funny I only had 6pcs of sky flakes since this afternoon. haha omg.

Am I killing myself but as if? I have lots of fats inside my body it can grined 'em all if it is hungry. hahaha (just suddenly I laugh 'coz of kuno that biotch! Peace mate.

:edited:

I'm bored so I thought its better to write down some thoughts I have.
2days or 3days since i feel so bored with myself or with anything. Wala akong magawa kaya parang lahat boring!! hindi ko feel makipagusap.. hindi ko feel kumilos.. hindi ko feel lahat. hahaha ano ba to nangyayri sa akin? huhuhu Help me..

maybe Ill eat more sweets. watcha think?
comment your suggestions peeps & help me. pls:)

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»Lookin so fresh, baby

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

listening to Tamia-Still.mp3

What it do Mate?

hahaha. my introduction always starts with a laugh, right? hahaha. So okay, Im bored right now.. not that bored though.. im thinkin' of changing my skin again 'coz i feel it's a little off. not really my type though i love what is written "i sleep all day". hahaha i think its the only cute thing here why i chose this skin.

Issa the bruhilda is probably sleepin' right now. Arghs, that Bru! lol. She went without sayin' goodnight or sumthin. Well okay lang hindi na nga siya natulog kakahintay sa akin eh,o dba. Kawawa naman ang bestfriend kooooong Baduuuuuy! hahaha kidding.

so okay. im posting my new look now. got my hair done and dusted. hahaha its so dry already that i have to rush to any salon i can find. i swear. So now, I'm happy!

really. going to salon scares me. 'Coz im afraid what would my look be. I might come out ugly.. but this ones' is nice.. *smile smile*

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»here i am.. tryin' so hard to breathe -so i got myself a beer.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

okay.

nag email ako sa gusto kong lalaki. haha i feel much better now.

so today, like 3days ago, i stayed at home and locked myself in me's room. The day passed by without me dooing anythin' besides talking to issangey. (hahahaha) I'm addicted to her coke. hahaha shet! Omg am straight ah, not tomboy please. (hahahaha) She's right were soulmates. you know what that is right? ok. We talk so much! How I wish she's juz my neighbor atleast we get to hang out.. you kno' like what girls do. Arghs! But it's gonna be soon. Yiihiiee!! Germany here I come!! hahahaha German Boys should be lining up now... Shhh.. hahhaahaha

Anyways highways, i dont know what to do now. I have no love life. Well about me's boyfriend, i dunno really. He's probably busy studying right now. and yea, guess he dont miss me 'coz he never email, txt or whatsoever. No effort at all. I'm cool wif that. I don't miss him anyway unlike before.. He used to be my life.. now he's like my unwanted stinky air.. Yea, how can i think like this. I'm hurt that is why. I have so much to tell about my feelings towards him but i'd rather keep in silence because I don't wanna think about him, maybe.

So now I keep my self busy with other things and I guess mas okay ako ngayon kesa dati na laging sad.. laging waiting for him to come.. i just watch dvd before going to sleep.. then morning i go out para hindi ko siya mamiss.. but now!! i get to stay home ahahaha! 'coz of Issangey!

so there.. imma stop now.. issangey's bugging me! arghs this bruhilda!!! ahahahhaaa

i will try to stop thinkin abt me's problems from now on.. I wanna be happy yea! so better focus on the postive side!!

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