Hmm not bad?! Id love to style my hair like these!! 💇🙋🌛🐩



My 1st pregnancy experience is a disaster. I am being thrown with more downs than ups. If emotionally abused is the right word, then maybe thats how i should call this experience. There are lots of times that all i have is myself. Being STRONG & lots and lots of PATIENCE are my shield to be able to have a bed to sleep safe at night .

I think for some reason i lost my identity as a woman, as a person. I ate all my pride to be able to get by. All just for the sake of my baby. -

I grew up with a knowledge that a womans pregnancy should be the most wonderful of all. Because its her first time, a woman needs alot of pampering, lots of love and support given by family especially her husband, lots of encouragement and so on and so forth.. all the nicest thing for a woman who is pregnant. But i guess i thought wrong. Here i am wondering why do i have to go through the other way around? I was always the one who sees goodness to everything.. So is it the person/people around me that drag me down to feel all the negativity in the world? I dont wanna blame any one but i just hope they would listen to me.. Listen to my feelings cos im exhausted. I wish the person whom i need the most would understand me.. And would give all the love i need.

So i am 32weeks and 6days today!!!! :)
The doc said that the baby is full term on 37weeks! Yay. So well wait within 39weeks to 41weeks till i guve birth so ya right around nov9. :)

Thinking about giving birth chills me.



Hi. Had a wonderful day yesterdy. Buying baby stuff can be Very very veryyyy fun!! But at the same time my feet was so sore. Hahaha

Anyways we bought most of things our baby will need just some more diapers, a crib &car seat left. Ow ya and some baby shower lotion pa pala. Lol.

Yesterday i got to try eating @tucanos brazillian grill. It was awesome. The meat kept on coming ans i couldnt finish mine. Salad bar too was eat all you can so it was worth it. :) i love their beverages too!!! So tropical like in my country. :P

Im posting a pic of my tummy too hahaha lmao.




I can't remember the last time doing something I enjoy. Going out where I had fun, no worries.. hay~ its been a while. I feel like I lost myself somewhere. I am sadden by this complete change. I guess I'm letting myself die day by day by making the wrong decision. I just hope that I get something from this life experience.. like a lesson to be stronger for someday when its just me and her, I know how to stand up on my own without letting others to mistreat me. Like what my mom said, I've never been bullied n my life since now. I guess I'm just letting it because I'm in a situation where i should not fight.. I've gone through so much shit already and I just don't want my baby to suffer, she's suffering enough with all the sad emotions i'm feelin. But all this will end.. in the right time and in God's will.

As long as my family is there to protect, love, guide and help me, we will be fine. It has always been them the reason why I'm living. Their love is unconditional, especially my mama.

 

Im at the university of utah Ob emergency and hooked up on a baby monitor. I dont kno what i was feeling but its grttin worse so the nurse askd me to come in. Now im here with babe. Hope everything is fine and nothing serious. :)

Update:::
Now im on iv cos im dehydrated! Theyre also checkin if im gonna have an early delivery which i dont wanna happen cos were not prepared! Pls Lord.

Anyway the nurse came and everythn is fine just some minor issues like contractions but nothin to worry about. Im just gettin near on my due date which id feel more uncomfortable in next few weeks i guess. I heard my babys heart beat and shes got a hiccups! Haha they said its cute. Lol. So okay gotta rest now.

And i wanna say thank you to my husband :) hes always there for me and takes care of me . :) kisses babe!!!!! Mwaah!!

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