»I smell something fishy ew
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I'm singing along to tynisha keli's Cry.
I just want to write what happened yesterday. Gone swimming with Elena @condo. Started jumpin' on the pool at 10Am. Yes, the sun was out and it was freaking hot but who cares?! Haven't done it for years i so missed it. Pics will be posted on FS/FB and or Flickr myb.
Anyways, since all of us are obsessed with losing weight, let me share my story. February. This month without any chicken/pork meat food, I had become weak that I kept getting black outs. My throat and lips were dry inspite of the amount of water I drank. I had no energy left. All i wanted to do was curl up in bed with a bucket of fried chicken. Myself have gone crazy mad and at night i pray to God that something glorious will appear on the table the morning i wake up. A month of fish, thinking of it everyday I woke up, makes me wanna throw up and hate fish- all my life. Lunch and Dinner doesn't excite me anymore. To tell you the truth, It wasn't my intention to have fish for lunch and dinner for a month(..and i dont have no idea how long this fishy thing will continue) It is my auntie's. It's not that she's on a diet too or everyone else in the house wants fish forever, but I guess she has no interest to feed us something glorious anymore or maybe we also got affected by economic crisis. Oh WTH, good thing oatmeal always on the rescue.
I wanted to go and eat in the restaurant but that will mean spending 250+ oh shiet i forgot, i have no moneeeeey.
peace
I just want to write what happened yesterday. Gone swimming with Elena @condo. Started jumpin' on the pool at 10Am. Yes, the sun was out and it was freaking hot but who cares?! Haven't done it for years i so missed it. Pics will be posted on FS/FB and or Flickr myb.
Anyways, since all of us are obsessed with losing weight, let me share my story. February. This month without any chicken/pork meat food, I had become weak that I kept getting black outs. My throat and lips were dry inspite of the amount of water I drank. I had no energy left. All i wanted to do was curl up in bed with a bucket of fried chicken. Myself have gone crazy mad and at night i pray to God that something glorious will appear on the table the morning i wake up. A month of fish, thinking of it everyday I woke up, makes me wanna throw up and hate fish- all my life. Lunch and Dinner doesn't excite me anymore. To tell you the truth, It wasn't my intention to have fish for lunch and dinner for a month(..and i dont have no idea how long this fishy thing will continue) It is my auntie's. It's not that she's on a diet too or everyone else in the house wants fish forever, but I guess she has no interest to feed us something glorious anymore or maybe we also got affected by economic crisis. Oh WTH, good thing oatmeal always on the rescue.
I wanted to go and eat in the restaurant but that will mean spending 250+ oh shiet i forgot, i have no moneeeeey.
peace
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»Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool
Saturday, February 21, 2009
The past few days, I just have been pondering alot. Ahhhh.. now I know where I am getting that horrible throbbing between my eyebrows from!! Too much thinking & squinting. On a serious note, "WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT ME IS WHAT I CHOOSE TO LET YOU SEE" reflects me in a big way. Not many people know this but the happy-go-lucky, the girl who doesn't give a flying fuck to anything is a camouflage. To grow up in a "dysfunctional" (like I always put it) family has not only made me crazy but also stronger. I have learnt to accept that tomorrow is a brand new day after staying awake the whole night, crying. I have learnt to distract myself from something hurtful when my friends talked about their happy family. My family wasn't that bad after all, It's just that- Nah, nvm too dramatic to explain. Maybe the way I was brought up entitled me to a future like this, not that I am a "trailer trash hoe selling crack for some dough" but the ways I view life is different from the people around me. That could be a beautiful thing. That could be what leads one to a psychiatric ward. Talking about that, at times I do think I am schizophrenic. I love talking to myself. Maybe schizophrenic would be too strong a word to use. I love the fact that what I couldn't get or be, I found that in me. Confusing huh?? For i.e, I wanted to be a singer but I can't so I had 2 parts to play. One of an RJ and another of a singer. You know what comes after that!
Maybe I have not put the message across or I probably did not try hard enough. As much as I like to hear "Ann is someone who can take along for a good night out", I cringe whenever I hear or read that(testimonials). I never planned to be wild. I never planned to be the one who knew the tricks to a good eye make up. I want to be that friend whom a girl can call at 3 in the morning so she can rant about what her bf called her. I want to be that daughter that a mother can quietly say it in her heart how proud I have done her. I want to be that sister whose brother feels free to talk about anything. I want to be that girlfriend any boyfriend yearn for. I am waiting for the day when my parents, my family, my friends can see me as a good person!!
The next step to my life is I'm going to get rid of all the people in my life who have made it hard for me to breathe. I'm 1/4 towards my goal. This is why I am hoping and praying I would get the visa back to UK anytime soon. I don't need morons in my life. The people I grew up with are the best and I swear, I wouldn't want to exchange them for anything in the whole wide world. They are the ones who I know I can count on through the good and bad times. I thought when I came to Philippines, things would be different and boy, was I right!! I love Philippines but I just don't like her citizens. I hate hearing someone boasting about what he/she bought... I hate rumors.. I hate visiting lola's province because those people can be downright rude. They just don't know how to be nice. No one thought them manners ??
So please please!! I need some fresh air. x
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Brap brap brapppppp !!! What's good in da hood y'all ?Lol i miss talking with all the slangs and the finger snappings. The days of fronting like i'm "so much better than you..much more ghetto-er than you" are over. My homegirls will understand what i'm talking about !! too bad none of them use blogspot. okay tats kewl
As you grow older, people expect so much from you. Too much responsibilities to uphold. Extensive hurdles to jump over. You're living a world that isn't yours anymore. Too many people to please but it's only so much you can do. If something goes wrong, all eyes are on you. You want to be the best, for them. Why can't the time stall once you reach 15 ? Everybody would be happy. If you fuck things up, people will shrug it off because you're still young to know what's wrong and what's right.
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»mind's full of SHEET
Sometimes i wish ma life wasn't like wha it is now. Why can't people see me cryin' inside when i'm always tryin' ma best to fake ma smile? Why does money have to make da world go round? Why am i not able to trust anyone anymo'? Where are all ma bestest friends when i'm out here in da cold and cryin' while juz typin' ?? *NICA, BRI, ISSA*. How come all da good people are bein' killed? It juz sums up one thing.. DA WORLD HAD GONE CRAZY. Where's da love ??
I think i've failed as bein' a good daughter which is definitely. I haven't called up ma mom and dad and talked to them. Tomorrow's gona be mom's birthday and i have NOTHING for her. I juz have failed in everything. Fuck dat...... i gotta go wash up now. peace..e-z
I think i've failed as bein' a good daughter which is definitely. I haven't called up ma mom and dad and talked to them. Tomorrow's gona be mom's birthday and i have NOTHING for her. I juz have failed in everything. Fuck dat...... i gotta go wash up now. peace..e-z
btw Revenge is sweet ..innit ?
I'm so sick of lil bucks frontin' around like they da shit. jus wanna let ya know y'all ain't da shit and stop pretendin' to be.
I'm so sick of lil bucks frontin' around like they da shit. jus wanna let ya know y'all ain't da shit and stop pretendin' to be.
Get off meCLIT
Damn Hoes.
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»WHAT'S UP
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
HELLO FRIENDS & LOVERS,
what have you guys been up to? haha. I kno I ddn't blog lyke forevurr. I was bc-bchan. doing almost nothing. lols. Seriously, I am now busy wif myself. Goin' to the doctor and all.. haays..
I'm useless.
Am now drinking
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