»Wonderin why?
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Im emotionally stressed and i feel so down right now. Am i trying so hard to be strong?Am i just a pain in the ass and do i really dont do anything? Honestly what i think is that ive been putting myself in a place where theres so much risk and ive been just trying to believe that everythings gonna be okay. I want to hold on to what ive been trying to believe in but sometimes my self is just ready to fall down. I feel so left out.. I feel like a stranger in the place where i thought i could call my own.. But seems like im just a guest and have no rights whenever things dont seem to be okay. I feel like i have to watch out on everything i do or say or else ill be thrown out. In my mind i just wanna feel happy inside and healthy for my baby.. Because all the heartaches i feel, my baby feels it too. &i dont want it to affect her in any way. Family and friends always tellin me to relax and be at peace for the sake of the baby and im trying but most of the time problem arises and i just ciuldnt help but cry and cry and cry. Im a very strong person and i dont usually give up but they say theres only so much a woman can take. So help us God. Hoping that tomorrow is better than today. x
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